Like
many mornings the day begins with two competing agendas. First, there is the desire to stop and in the
quiet hear the Lord’s voice, to encounter Him in a personal, profound, and life
changing way. The second agenda is the
busyness of the day; it is the agenda of the lists. There is the ‘must-do’ list, there is the ‘need-to-do
list’, there is the ‘would-nice-to-be-done list’ and there is the ‘want-to-do
list’. All these lists scramble through
my mind demanding attention. The first
agenda is orderly and quiet; it is practiced in calm, beauty and peace. It enjoys a richness of heart that invites me
to linger for the whole day in serene quietude.
The second is the chaos in which time and resources are not nearly
adequate for all that is expected or needed.
This second agenda is lived out in functionality that is devoid of joy
or passion. How exciting can one really
be about the dreariness of car service, errands, chores and all the other
functions the suck up time; the most non-renewable, natural resource.
We
crave for the sublime moment where our encounter with the divine is along John
the Baptist’s description: “I have beheld the Spirit descending as a dove out
of Heaven, and remained on Him”. But
wait. Jesus has just returned from the
trials in the desert. He is about to call
His first disciples and dive headlong into three years of the chaotic life of
ministry. Jesus was serene, but His life
wasn’t. We may have missed something
that will help us.
“When
the Spirit descended like a dove” needs to be understood from the Jewish
perspective. Jesus and John were Jewish
as were John’s original audience. In the
Jewish mind, what did this “descended like a dove” mean? In Genesis 1:2, we learn that over the
formless, void, waste and emptiness that was initial creation the Spirit of God
hovered over the chaos. The Rabbis saw
the Spirit fluttering like a dove over the face of the waters. They saw in this passage the Spirit breathe
into the chaos beauty, order, purpose, direction and reason for being. The Spirit did not obliterate chaos; it was
shaped to conform to the will of God.
While this is not the whole meaning of the decent of the Spirit it would
have been part of the Jewish mindset.
Order
that pleases God can come out of the chaos of busy days. Jesus’ life did not, at this moment, become
more quiet and reserved. He didn’t go
off to a retreat center for three years of Bible reading, journaling, and quiet
study. Instead, He waded into the chaos
of life and the order that would please the Father emerged.
The
chaos of my day is still before me. My
“must-be-done-by-noon” list could easily fill a whole day. Some things simply will not get done and that
will mean loose ends- read chaos-to be dealt with later. But in cooperation with the Spirit of God
this chaos need not distress me; in fact, I may see God at work in it. If only I can develop the eyes of John.